Reason

I know I tend to get over your head sometimes. Going late with some girls including boys, not listening you. But keep in mind that despite these, in my mind I always had that thought, "how I wish he can here, eating the same thing that I ate, karaoke-ing to the song that I'm listening to, enjoying the late night drives,"
I wish I could tell you how how I love the night breeze, the falling stars, the bright moon.

I wish I could tell you how much you've changed my life to become a better person. From being heartless, cold, look at me, I'm a whole heart now!

I wish that you knew that you were the reason for everything in my present life now.

But sadly, I'm not the reason for you to stay.

Promise

Remember that one day
You said you will never let a single tear leave my eye
And you said you shall make me happy everyday for the rest of my life
Remember when you said
You will make me feel like I am the luckiest girl alive
To make the world jealous of us being together 
You said that we shall marry one day and have kids
You will accept me for who I am
Love each of my flaws

Well, promises are meant to be broken.

I am at my lowest. I thought broken heart can be fixed but I was wrong. My heart was alrd shattered into thousands of pieces, I can barely breathe yet I still can put a smile on my face bcs I dont want ppl around me to be affected by the negative vibes. I laugh when they laugh, I still can talk jokes w them, but my soul was not there. My mind wandered somewhere else. All my emotions are mixed up. Angry? Sad? Disappointed? Depressed? Man, idk what to feel. I thought we were okay but we dont. I hide all my disappointments bcs I dont want you to feel that I was such a nuisance. But I guess I am really a nuisance, right from the start.