I am really an independent woman but I am lying if I said I dont want people care about me, to love me as my whole self. I want a guy that I can share my thoughts to, anything that I have in my mind and he shouldn't judge about my opinion. I also want him to be able to cope with my clingyness, yes I dont look clingy but trust me I will get furious if you do not respond to me for minutes let alone hours and days. My mood will go so bad even the ice will evaporate when it touches me. And when I become like that, I will say stupid things, and I will ignore you back ((I dont really ignore people bcs I dont want them to feel the same as I do. So maybe after 2 or 3 hours I will respond to you)) When I become like that, call me. That's all. By hearing the voice of the person that I love, I will be fine. Comfort me. Thats all I want. Your attention.
I want a guy who wont be so suspicious of me. Let me tell you. I can be the most loyal girlfriend ever. I dont really talk to guys, and if so, I actually knew them. Most of the guys will try to have a convo with me but I will try not to lengthen the convo. And when I walk, I look at the floor. I hate eye contacts with ppl. A few of my peers said that I am pretty that I can be a guy magnet. Dont worry, not even a single random guy tried to approach me bcs they knew I will not entertain them. I might go out with some guys but we went with a group. A large one with the ratio girls being more than guys. And I will sit in the middle between my girls. And I wont really talked to them bcs there's nothing to talk about.
Bear in mind that I can still take care of myself and I know my limit. I want a guy that knows that. I dont him to go on a rage knowing that I went out late ((its not even late and I usually went back half past midnight)) oh plus I dont really go out during the night. Do not be mad at me bcs I find that annoying. I know my limits. Even my parents know that I go out that time. Unless youre my husband, then I angkut you skli.
Whatever I do, whatever decisions I make, he shall support me. That guy should let me know that he is rooting for me. All I need was supports from people that I love which includes him. He shall be my cheerleader. He shall be the one who will keep my spirit up. He shouldnt simply pick a fight with me when I am in a competition or anything. He should not make me cry the night before the competition or any time during it. Honestly, I am a crybaby. Even with the slightest thing I can cry like a waterfall. Just support me, in everything that I do.
I want a guy that can lead me. A guy that show me the good and the bad, who will advice me in anything that I do. Do you know how the ustaz or tok imam talk to the person who wanted to change? Can you see how he talks to him and tried to comfort him with soft voice? I want it like that. Im a soft hearted person. When people talk to me with a soft voice, in a split sec my heart will melt. Let alone comfort me with that voice. If you want to advice me, use a soft voice. Kita nk ajak org buat baik tapi kita nk marah. Sape yg nk terima?
I am a really picky eater. There are some things that I like and some that dont. So I hope that guy can be my loyal tong sampah and take whatever sayur that I dont like. That is how I define tong sampah. But Im actually a foodie. I eat everything that have my fav ingredient and when I suap you, you have to accept it no matter what hahaha. When I shove food into your mouth, keep in mind that you are the guy that I love wholeheartedly. And when I said I want to eat something together when we meet, do that. Find that food. Bring me to that place. And I will suap you for the rest of the date.
If you wish to stare at me, pls do. But when I dont notice. I dont like ppl staring at me when I was doing something that requires attention. But do it secretly. Bcs I really like catching you staring at me, and then blushed out and smile. And then when I laughed bcs you malu malu kucing. I love how you just couldnt stop smiling when we are together. I miss that.
And then when I role playing, never ignore that. Play along. Bcs that is how I imagine my future. And when I walk with you, showing things that should be in our house, you should do that too. Like how we walked into the Ikea, showing the furnitures that I like, walking around like a newly wed couple. And I said I like that one bed sheet set that is white in color. You said its nice but when we sleep there's a chance that I can get bocor. But then you said you will clean it if I really want that cadar. One of the moments that I will forever treasure.
I want that guy to protect me with all his heart. I like being protected, but in a proper way. I always love it when I have a place to mengadu and you shouldnt be outraged. Be professional. Not by throwing tantrums. You cannot be jealous of that thing bcs it wasnt me who talked to that random guy who tried to kacau me. Be a gentleman. Like how you did when my sis received a porn vid from some unknown guy. I like the way you handled him. Shows that you are really matured.