Dear diary?

I can never tell you everything that I have in my mind, or the things happened to me without having the fear of you flipped out and being mad at me. I can never share with you things that I find interesting or weird bcs I know where it leads to. I hoped that I can be myself, without having the fear that you might do things that dissapoints me. These tears will never dry, for I have completely drowned in the sea of despair. I am afraid of losing you, but at the same time you keep hurting me with your words, your attitude. For now its best for me to keep everything to myself, for I am afraid you will hurt me again. You are not my diary anymore.

Reason

I know I tend to get over your head sometimes. Going late with some girls including boys, not listening you. But keep in mind that despite these, in my mind I always had that thought, "how I wish he can here, eating the same thing that I ate, karaoke-ing to the song that I'm listening to, enjoying the late night drives,"
I wish I could tell you how how I love the night breeze, the falling stars, the bright moon.

I wish I could tell you how much you've changed my life to become a better person. From being heartless, cold, look at me, I'm a whole heart now!

I wish that you knew that you were the reason for everything in my present life now.

But sadly, I'm not the reason for you to stay.

Promise

Remember that one day
You said you will never let a single tear leave my eye
And you said you shall make me happy everyday for the rest of my life
Remember when you said
You will make me feel like I am the luckiest girl alive
To make the world jealous of us being together 
You said that we shall marry one day and have kids
You will accept me for who I am
Love each of my flaws

Well, promises are meant to be broken.